I'm 42 years old and divorced two years ago, currently living alone. I work as a cosmetics sales clerk at a department store, doing my best to make ends meet every day. I'm applying for this because I'm under pressure to repay my debts. During a turbulent period in the past, I relied on spending money on host club boys just to get through each day. My ex-husband was a man three years older than me, working as a sales representative for a cosmetics manufacturer that was one of our business partners. Our relationship didn't last long, eventually leading to divorce. Believing happiness would inevitably disappear, I desperately tried to keep him close by constantly contacting him and monitoring his actions—where he was, what he was eating, when he'd come home, who he was with. But the more I did this, the further he drifted away, and the warmth between us gradually faded. Carrying these emotions in my heart, today I've applied to return borrowed dreams from a fantasy world.