When I was 14, I had my first kiss at a nearby shrine. It was both of our first times, so we didn't know how to kiss and kept asking each other, "Is this right?" while nervously feeling the warmth between us. I still remember that feeling clearly today.
At 15, I had my first sex at my boyfriend's house. We had planned to do it that day, but I didn't understand what was happening and it didn't go well—it hurt. The embarrassment and anxiety from that moment still remain in my heart.
I've had sex with four people so far. Each relationship and situation was different, but everything I've learned and felt through these experiences remains important to me even now.
One unusual sexual experience was having sex inside a Ferris wheel. I could feel as if people around us were watching, and though my heart raced, I still enjoyed it. In the future, I'd like to try being blindfolded or tied up during sex.